♥ Apple

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♥ Apple

I miss bf so so so much!

Didnt really get to call/msg him much

as his on drip in camp.

He need alot of rest.

Cute bf of mine ^^

His a botak now =x

I love you Chee Wei.

Hope that he will recover soon

like his cough.

Sorry that I pass it on to you. =x

Hmm... It's pass 12am now.

So Happy birthday to me ^^

Will be very busy later.

The planning for later on I wont say out but at night comfirm will

be at Phuture.

Cause need some peaceful time with Love.

My birthday wish for this year is...

Not gonna type it out here XD

But just hope to have a peaceful life.

I cant wait to see yeah!

30 Oct

After did my nails & Facial went to sleep at 4.40pm ever since 3am I haven been sleeping.

5pm woke up by my friend, came over to my hse

downstair and brought me to Bugis to

meet the rest of the girls to rent costume!

Well the costume pricing is very reasonable.

Have fun trying a few costume.

There's wedding gown too, the moment I see it

I said, " I wanna get married tomorrow!"

LOL! The gowns are so pretty, cannot resist the temptation.

Immediately I thought of bf and remember

he will keep on say wanna have "Long Bao Bao" with me -_-"

Meaning want a baby with me which born on the dragon year

like him. LOL!

By the time get renting done it was like 8 plus pm.

Head to Parco for dinner slack awhile, reached home at 11 plus pm.

Bf keep on call/msg me cause his worried

about my safety as he feel that it's late cause normally he

will send me to the level that

I'm leaving at.

Thanks sweetie bf, even though his sick but

he still show me that his worried/care about me.

Finally stick the star on both of the helmet ^^

His is purple in colour mine is white.

Going to get ready and hit the sheet & get

enough rest for later on as I'll be running here & there!

♥ Is the air

12:32 AM

♥ Thursday, October 30, 2008

♥ Apple

It's my Birthday after today

past 12am

and it's halloween day!

Love 31 Oct ^^

Peeps wanna join me at phuture?

Get dressed up and party till you drop =)

I'll be reaching there before 9pm.

♥ Is the air

2:22 PM

♥

♥ Apple

25 Oct

Well many things happened.

Have a better understanding of the situation.

Well I understand.

I forgive & forget.

He chose me but for some reason it's still drag on till now.

Hope that he will put an end to it.

Accompanied him to CGH in the midnight.

Came over to my house till evening he went home

as he have to book in.

Oh well sad to say I'm not the one who sent him in as

I'm not a pester.

28 Oct

At first I thought I'll fail my Lesson 1 as

I feel that I've make many mistake.

So headed back to the report station carrying the

"I will fail for sure" feeling.

While walking half way back.

Bf book out and he came dwn to find me without me knowing.

Sweet suprise, thanks bf!

I was thinking at least his suprise make me feel better.

So he accompanied me to the report station

to wait for the result.

My name was called last!

Finally I'm proceed to Lesson 2 ^^

Two happy things that make me smile non stop after my Lesson.

Hehe =)

After that straight away go book my Lesson 2.

Went back my house,

he waited for me to get bath.

Head over to his house, waited for him to eat his dinner.

Get tools to wash bike and head to the carpark

and wash his bike.

First time wash vehicle and it's for him, he should feel glad. LOL XD

After washing bike, went to have my dinner and we head

to CGH again. LOL =)

After that head home.

29 Oct

Went for my Lesson 2, well I failed.

Haha! first attempt of cause fail.

After that went home bath and head over to his house.

Till 10 plus pm left his house and I head home.

30 Oct

Head over to his house in the early morning,

hoping that I'll be the one who send him back camp.

But oh well. Haha! I'm not a pester as I've said so I never accompanied

him. Head home after that. From 3am till now I haven even rest/sleep.

Calling/text my friend to go down Phuture to celebrate my birthday.

Going to Bugis later to meet up with friends see if I'll be dressing up

for Halloween cum my birthday tomorrow.

Guess I'm gonna rest before I head out.

Maybe get my nails done & facial face first.

P.S: I just want to pass everyday peacefully with bf. Sweet & happily, bf teach me something today so that I wont lose out. Haha... His so cute/bad.

♥ Is the air

1:55 PM

♥ Sunday, October 26, 2008

♥ Apple

Till the end you show no interest of saving the situation

rather save you and her r/s as she like your last hope

that you can save.

You said that sentence, told you that you have said that

sentence, denied saying that you didnt

untill gf call in too than you said that you have

forget that you said that sentence.

Do you have any idea how hurtful that sentence is?

How much impact it will reflect on me?

You have no idea.

You cant have two girls at a go.

There's only one decision that you can choose.

Oh well, you have told Jer that you cant be bother.

Why shd I bother even more when I'm the one getting hurt

and you are the one hurtting me?

You know the reason why I still drag on and dwell on?

Because I love you so much that I can forgive & forget

and start out a fresh with you.

But since there's no response from you I guess you are

busy with the last hope that you can save.

Saying that the friendster a/c is your love log in.

Telling Jer that it's a prank that people is playing on you

for setting up that a/c.

But after much observation the words that you type

it's the style that you usually do.

I asked why did you have that picture in friendster?

Saying that you pass your psp to your friend and your love

steal the picture from your friend.

Saying that you are not together with her,

said that it's a one sided love

meaning she's the one who's loving you only but you dont.

Saying that she's crazy?

It really make me wonder what are you telling to your

love on the other side.

Loving you hurts me so much.

Lies, Lies & Lies.

Telling me no matter what I'm girl that you love most,

the girl that you want to be with the most,

the girl that you miss the most,

the girl that you wanna hug the most,

the girl that you wanna take care of the most.

I guess it's just some sweet msges to save the situation.

Knowing that you cant save the situation you choose to

hack care about the situation.

I dont hate you, I cant deny my love for you I've got no

idea how long it will takes to fade.

I'm so weak now, sick and emo.

Have to take so many drowsy med to make myself fall

asleep.

For the first time I'm torturing myself so badly.

It's time I wake up from this nightmare.

I'm so seriously hurt, the feeling so painful.

People telling me that he time me I dont believe,

untill his love pop out than I really cannot believe

what he have done to me.

Saying that having me will make him busy enough,

when we havent started out you said that dont have gf will

be better before going NS.

But end up?

Having two gfs when you go in NS.

Speechless.

♥ Is the air

10:11 AM

♥ Saturday, October 25, 2008

♥ Apple

I feel so much better after sending him msg. I'll put a full stop to this chapter of my life. This is gonna be the last post about him. I love him so much but I'm willing to forget what have happened and that I've been treated like a fool for 3 month.

Gonna get ready to meet mummy go change my hp number. Just wanna lead a simple and carefree life, be back my usual self. I'm so hurt and I know it's gonna take sometime to heal. I can forgive him, there must be a reason behind it. I'll accept what he have done to me and the decision he have made. Knowing that his happy I'll be happy too, glad that he have found who he really love.

I just wanna say here that I hope he will take good care of himself and ride safely always. I wanted to tell him that we could still be friend but I dont think it's a good idea in anyway. This 3 months have been a sweet memory to me, it's well kept in my heart. I may not be the one who you really love or I'm not good enough for yeah.

To him : I believe in fate if we are able to still be friend. I love you alot but I really have to let go. Just really want you to be happy.

I think this is the best way of handling the situation now. None is hurt, I'll bear all this shit alone cause I'm sure I'm able to handle and get over it. Get myself so dead beat that I wont have to think so much and get going with my life.

P.S: I love you Chee Wei.

♥ Is the air

3:27 PM

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♥ Apple

So lost, speechless, hurt & sad. Now then I know the answer to my doubts this pass 3 months. It's time for me to let go, enjoy my life well after all this ups and downs. Be my happy self back. Anyway I'm single now, dont wanna mention much about what is really going on now. Only want him to be happy and with the one who he really love to be happy with. Cant really sleep now, no one to turn to. Wanna cry out so hard that I'm so tired and fell asleep. By the time I wake up everything will be fine. I really love him alot but I know it's really the very last time I'm gonna say I'm really letting go after I found the answer to my doubts.

Time to move on, get my studies done, work hard and start to save money to travel. Maybe staying single would be the best for my current situation now. It hurt so much that I really cant lie to myself that it's ok or deny that I'm sad. It's so hard to vent it out. I'm gonna break down anytime. I guess I just need sometime alone to wake myself up from all this nightmare.

♥ Is the air

12:58 AM

♥ Sunday, October 19, 2008

♥ Apple

I'm like at the lowest point of my life, so aimless,

I'm upset with the decision I've make.

Life's in a total mess.

Sometimes I just wanna wash my hands off

and lead a carefree life.

I hate what is going on with my life now.

So pissed that I dont have any mood to blog and many stuff.

So moody that I dont have much mood to do many stuff

that I usually like to do.

Somehow I've got the missing feeling but the feeling is just not right.

Time changes most of the thing around me.

It's too late by the time I realise.

Life's a bitch.

♥ Is the air

1:24 PM