♥ Apple

♥ Monday, November 24, 2008

♥ Apple

This stupid blog shop "SHOPPINGISLOVE" spammed

my tag board like no tomorrow.

Anyway I'm not gonna put the link

of what the blog shop is.

Not gonna help this idiot who spammed my tag blog.

And peeps please so not spam my tag board just to

bitch anyone.

Thank you.

Just came back from Malaysia with my parent

just to attend a wedding dinner.

The service there sucks, food sucks

& everything sucks.

So budget la the wedding.

Anyway life now better, with great friends around.

Friends who help me up when I'm at the lowest point of life.

Thank you peeps.

♥ Is the air

12:18 AM

♥ Thursday, November 20, 2008

♥ Apple

I'm sure I'm gonna move on well/happily =)
I'm in good hands now.
I can see a better life ahead of me now.
There's nothing more I should dwell on.
There's nth left for me to hold on to the past.

I'm sure I'll be able to get what I want
and that's a simple relationship =)
More positive thinking now.
Ok off to get on with my life.
I'm a love-ed one now.

♥ Is the air

8:35 PM

♥ Tuesday, November 18, 2008

♥ Apple

Just came back from my practical,
Oh yeah passed my practical 2 yesterday
but failed practical 3.
Haha! As usual, 1st attempt is hard for me to pass.
The figure 8 is hard for me & the narrow course.
Boo...
Guess I must re-take 4 to 5 times than pass.
Haha!
Gonna have a good sleep
and get ready for Left 4 dead session later.
Cant wait cause I've been playing the demo
so many times like keep on repeat the game over & over again
finally today get to play the full version.
Weet~

Must not torture myself anymore,
live my life great.
Responsibility wont last in relation-shit
but it's love that will last.
Bear in mind.
Never regret for the decision you have made.
Cause in the later part it's always
then you will found out that you have made the
wrong decision.
Oh well.

I felt better of cause
not so down like what I've been through
ever since 25 Oct.
What I've really hope for is a simple
relationship that will last.
Spend time happily without any doubts.
Ok enough of all this crap.
Off to bed.

This song is dedicate to you.
This post will be the last about all those crap.

♥ Is the air

5:16 PM

♥ Monday, November 17, 2008

♥ Apple

Feeling so down, just wish that I could vent it out. Why things have to turn out this way. Maybe it's time that it comes to an end. At least I've tried my best, think back about the past it really does put a smile on my face cause it's sweet. It's hard to let go but I'll try my best.

I just want to have a simple r/s

that will last.

Peaceful & simple that's all that I've asked for.

But seems so hard to get.

I really love you,

hoping to last with you,

but oh well...

Think I'll get some sleep to feel better. Your message really hurt me & every single action of yours. Speechless...

Blogged @ 12.46pm

After seeing those message I've come to a decision, I promise I'll let go for sure. Since you have stated so clear. Try my best not to step into your circle of life, for this I'll try cause I know I'm soft hearted & will have the urge to message etc. super down feeling. Boo... I just wanna numb my feeling towards r/s. Really tired out by relation-shit stuff, it's time to be single hood. I dont wanna torture myself anymore. Happy is what I want but get some sleep to calm myself first. =)

Blogged @ 1.03pm

Freaking swear to myself I wont make this history repeat again. Never! After being such a superb nice gf but not appreciated, oh well~ No more such non sense again. Move on with my life great. =)

♥ Is the air

12:16 PM

♥ Thursday, November 13, 2008

♥ Apple

Finally home, feeling so weak,

tired out physically & mentally,

really feeling so sick after get drench in the rain

and crying so hard.

Feeling hurt, sad & speechless.

Going to get some sleep to feel better.

Think back I should feel happy & glad.

Really content with what I use to have =)

It's time I should let go happily.

Good memories are kept well in heart.

P.S : Really thanks alot & I love yeah.

Blogged at 9:50pm
Just got to know from Janice that school reopen like on Tuesday la.
My attendance deep shit le.
Hopefully tomorrow go student service can nego with the person.
Wa...
Jialet sia!
No time table received etc.
Got to work hard for this coming term.
I've got 5 module exam for this term.
Deep shit.
My life have really got me into trouble.
Time to put an end to all those non sense.
Will be super busy or should say keep myself busy
to drive my attention away from what I shouldnt be concentrating on.
Today was late for R3 & R4 theory so went home
& waited for 4 plus lesson 2.
Failed as usual T.T
Tomorrow will be having R3 & R4 theory
from evening to night la =(
Today got to know a girl from lesson 2
and she will be having R3 & R4 theory tomorrow together with me.
Hmm...Omg I just rem I've got a lesson 2 on Mon morning
think later on I've got to cancel it.
Heard from Janice saying that school is very strict now
on attendance =(
Stress ah...
Exam 5 module,
working time, studying time & bike lesson corrupted together.
My plan is to get license asap & quickly get a bike.
Then I can anyhow run.
LOL.
I'm still like in a slack-ing mood.

♥ Is the air

7:52 AM

♥ Monday, November 10, 2008

♥ Apple

Bastard-ed.

Lies over lies.

Never will I be fooled again.

Do I look like a idiot?

Fuck.

When I've got the time I'll blog again.

♥ Is the air

10:25 PM

♥ Wednesday, November 5, 2008

♥ Apple

It's been 6 days I last saw him.

I miss him alot.

Recevied message from his campmate

saying that his at the sick bay ever

since last night.

Boy I'm worried, really hope that you are

ok in there.

I'm so WORRIED!

I miss you badly.

I've been playing dota ever since after I

post a entry this morning untill evening 5 plus

I call up JerJer & we chat till 7 plus pm

and I went to bed to rest.

Due to my medication that's to

widen my windpipe

it have cause side effects and that's

make my heart beat rate faster to a way that

I'm having difficulties in breathing.

So sleeping is the best way to make myself better.

Woke up at 9pm, get prepared & head to

Rivervale Plaza to get my MC everything settled.

Reached home by 10pm, all the paper work was done so fast.

Swear to myself not to go that day light robbery clinic anymore.

Mon I went to see Doc and I was charge $50!

Than just now have to pay $10 again.

Everything is all about money -_-"

Killer!

I guess I'm going to Dota again & wait for mummy to

come back & cook for me.

I've been dota-ing ever since after my birthday.

I dota like the whole day,

wake up dota till I'm off to bed.

Now my a/c in Garena is lvl 6,

like so hard to level la -_-"

I wanna hear your voice so badly

just to know that you are ok.

I'm so worried!

♥ Is the air

10:54 PM

♥

♥ Apple

Hey sweeties out there if there any events
do not hesitate to contact me at enen89@hotmail.com!

Every night having sleepless night,

every night sleep awhile,

dreamt of you and I woke up and i cant get back to sleep.

Looking through our photos,

read through messages that you sent to me.

Sending you morning message to tell you to wake up.

Hoping that you wont be late & get aim.

Told myself that I have to let go

but my heart just stay strong against my decision.

End up messaging you again.

Oh my goodness.

I believe that I'm the one that you love,

that one that you miss most,

the one who you wanna meet most,

the one who you want to accompany you most

like you said.

I love you so much.

Never I had love someone so much that

I can forgive & forget.

Reason why I feel so cause I must at least try my best

& give one last best shot in fighting for my love.

Glad that you in camp you will listen

to the song that I like.

I'm always listening to song that you like =)

You asked me to send you my photo on

1st Nov and so immediately I took a

photo & sent it to you.

This is what I sent him, pardon me for not having

any make ups. Haha =)

Said that you have put it on ur wallpaper

looking at it everyday.

Thanks for chatting with me till your phone batt dead.

By each & every single of your action

can feel that I'm really the one that you love.

I love you alot too!

Every single of your message I kept it,

named you Dar in my fone have never change

our photos are still well kept in my phone & lappy.

My bad that whenever I'm angry I will

tend to delete the photos

but I've back up in my lappy.

Hehe.

Have been rotting at home ever since after

my birthday.

Wanna be bf's good gf.

Met up with gf as she wanna pass me my present on

3rd Nov.

Went to took MC with her

due to my serious cough

leads to windpipe narrowed.

Doc gave me med to widen the wind pipe.

Later I've got to go make police report

for sure this time and extend my MC.

Fold my clothes,

clean my room.

And complete the star that for

our helmet =)

Guess I can start to book my practical again.

This photo remind me of bf's photo taking skill,

so blur. LOL!

Remember he was complaining that his

handach when taking photos.

Got one event but it's postpone to Dec =(

Anyway thanks to those babes who have

been intro me events all the way while ^^

Gonna have photoshoots again

to update my portfolio

due to my curly hair.

Pardon me for not posting any of my photoshoots here

but I'm gonna make my own portfolio soon.

Next theme I thought of wedding gown

so Mike asked if I wanna find someone (male)

to take with me.

Thinking hard who will it be...

♥ Is the air

6:14 AM

♥ Saturday, November 1, 2008

♥ Apple

Seriously pissed with the sms that bf sent to me this morning. Sent till like I did something wrong behind his back. What about him? I've waited like a fool at home with his present & cake when he played MIA with me. End up his celebrating with someone else with the hug & kisses photo. Cool!

My birthday at least I celebrate with friends but not like him celebrate with his love. Wake up your mind la, it's because you did me wrong that's why you scare that I'll do this to you too. Too bad, too sad I wont! Sent him message but I guess his really out of words to reply me. How are you going to reply me when I've say what you have did behind my back.

Thanks peeps for yesterday birthday celebration. But I lost my wallet =( I'm broke now. Really hope that the person who found it will be kind enough to pick it up & send it back to me. Later still have to go police station to make report. Mon exam really no mood. Haix...

Just hope that everything will run smooth for me. Life's a bitch.

♥ Is the air

11:38 AM